换来的却是无情的伤害
失去了自信
失去了相信
失去了 自己
为什么我无法再对别人露出真心的微笑？
为什么我非得怀疑别人的真心不可？
为什么无法再相信？
为什么？
我的为什么 总是解不开
Y: 我的生日愿望 我要实现
COUNTDOWN 32 DAYS .
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
COUNTDOWN 34 DAYS !
COUNTDOWN 34 DAYS !
yeaii yeaii yeaii ~~
^^
present present present ~
huhuhuhu ~~
eager .
xD
i recently got a special 癖好~
" TIAK TIAK !~~ "
hahahahaah !
kolian my frenz lur .
xD
Y : tiak tiak ~ blekkkk ~ runn !! hahahaahah ^^
Monday, July 27, 2009
30august .
30august .
30august .
30august .
the first year that i'll celebrate my bufdae in Genting !
with my dearest family .
^^
MAYBE lak .
80% .
xixi .
eeeeee .
if got then 29th go , 30th afternoon bac .
xD
but hor ...
i have to dam daii my frenz in kedah .
huhuhu ~
paiseii lak .
u all accompany me in other days what .
bor tan run niao !
xDD
i still love you all !
muack muack ~
^^
Y : countdown 35 days more .
fast fast fast niao !
...
BEAR BEAR !
...
hahahaahhaha ~
xD
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Headache >.<
headache .
headache .
headache .
today headache .
san fuu seii .
>.<
in school starts to be .
then the pain slowly disappeared .
come again !
arghhh ~~
="(
back home terus oioi lur .
but ...
oioi more then tired more .
now oso pening pening jorr .
waiwai lur everyone .
nite nitezz .
muack muack ~
Y : Headache PLEASE go away !
~ 2nd siblings day ~
25 JULY 09
huu ~
today totally din play dao with ah jie ah ge .
they busy theirs .
i busy mine .
= [
still same .
wake up damn early .
attend my piano lesson .
finish jorr ,
surely ... oioi !
xD
coz today no science tuition .
i can do what i wan to do !
hohoho ~
wake up mam mam .
headache ~
>.<
then did jorr later nite tuition geh homework .
continue oioi ~
hohoho ~
become pig niao .
LOL .
while go tuition .
scare dao ban sii .
scare kena scold .
mana tau ..........
NOTHING HAPPEN .
=.='''
SWEAT !
hai wo scare dao ban sii .
at last ...
apa pun tak da .
LOL .
boom boom boom ~~~
zha dao ~
but ...
relieve !
hahahahaahaah ^^
back home .
ah jie busy her homework .
ah ge busy with his things in his room .
hiyor ~
aku pun tak tau nak buat apa niao .
on9 .
watch movie .
again on9 .
oioi .
xD
huu ~
today totally din play dao with ah jie ah ge .
they busy theirs .
i busy mine .
= [
still same .
wake up damn early .
attend my piano lesson .
finish jorr ,
surely ... oioi !
xD
coz today no science tuition .
i can do what i wan to do !
hohoho ~
wake up mam mam .
headache ~
>.<
then did jorr later nite tuition geh homework .
continue oioi ~
hohoho ~
become pig niao .
LOL .
while go tuition .
scare dao ban sii .
scare kena scold .
mana tau ..........
NOTHING HAPPEN .
=.='''
SWEAT !
hai wo scare dao ban sii .
at last ...
apa pun tak da .
LOL .
boom boom boom ~~~
zha dao ~
but ...
relieve !
hahahahaahaah ^^
back home .
ah jie busy her homework .
ah ge busy with his things in his room .
hiyor ~
aku pun tak tau nak buat apa niao .
on9 .
watch movie .
again on9 .
oioi .
xD
Y : abit tired today . coz yesterday play too hiong gua ? xD
SIBLINGS DAY ~ xD
24 JULY 09
ding dong ding dong !~
ah jie ah ge is back !
OH YES !
WOO !
amitofo ~
at last ......
hahax !
xDD
xDD
ah jie reach at 5am++ like that norr .
i'm sure oioi jorr larx .
but neh ...
she come and kacau me up ...
LOL .
sure is TOO MISS ME NIAO !
hahahahahaah !
^^
then i terus hug diao her !
kakakakakaz !miss seii her lur !!
wuwu ~
then i told her morning i got tuition .
she go downstairs niao .
find mummy .
but ...
i cant oioi jorr !
over excited !
=.='''
get up and see my phone .
O M G ~
it's 6.30 .
i just left 3 and the half hours more to oioi nia .
faster run into my blanket ,
CONTINUE .
xDD
until 10am ,
get up prepare for my sejarah tuition class .
1pm finish .
go back .
ah jie just wake up !
LOL .
xDthen go visit my small aunt !
GO AND SEE MY LITTLE COUSIN ~
bak bak geh ~
baby face ~
CUTE !
^^
just several months old nia .
long time din see her niao .
xixi .
and my granpa grandma so ngam there also .
chit chat nuu ~
eat laksa ~
play with baby ~
ding ding dong dong then go back jorr .
coz my uncle will be coming to my house later .
reach .
uncle reach too .then greet them jorr jiu pull ah jie go upstairs keng gai .
hehe .
long long long time din talk jorr sure got alot of things to say morr .
xD
then it's time for the bookings for ah jie to go and cut her hair !
she told me puii her go .
at first dun wan eh .
but ...
aiya ~
cincai na ~
TODAY I WAN NIAM DIAO AH JIE AND AH GE !
hahax .
go there .
still have to wait for a person .
wu liao lur then jiu ..
hehehehehe . zaii zaii niao . xD but the floor ......=X
lol .
and everytime ah jie's back ,
i will .......
[ ah jie saw it mai scold me . 我不是故意的! 真的！xD ]
ah jie's turn !
my turn to be wu liao lur ...
ah jie cutting . =]
then ah jie said she wan eat cheese cake .
so we go Secret Recipe buy lur .
supper laii .
coz after that whole family is going out for dinner !
yeai yeai ~
happieee !!
^^
then while eating ,
i say wan we 3 ( ah ge , ah jie , me ) hang out lak .
coz long long time just come back once wat ...
xD
so ...
after mam mam ...
go back bafu bafu WITH AH JIE !
hahax !
LOL .
we sot sot eh .
she arhx ...
come back once then teach me become bad once lol .
[ mai tell u apa tu . xD ]
just keep playing and playing .
" my lips like sugar ... my lips like sugar ... "
wakakakakaakak !
[ just ah jie and me knew it . xD ]
then ah ge be driver lur .
go bowling in Pacific .
hek hek hek ~
^^
bowling ring . =]
PLAY UNTIL 1AM .
hahax !
but not only this larx .
still play some bobo game there .
hehe .
^^
back jorr .
i tired dou seii jorr .
oioi nuu ~
ah jie and ah ge i tak tau norr .
bor chap jorr !
xDD
nite nitezz .
HAPPIEE !
^^
Y : i extremely enjoyed myself today jekk !
always miss ah jie & ah ge ~
^^
Friday, July 24, 2009
UNHAPPIEE ?
30 august .
30 august .
30 august .
LOL .
keep thinking .
i just knew that ah jie and ah ge will be back tomorrow !
maybe ah jie will reach tonite .
i mean ...
midnite .
hahax !
she is sitting a bus back with her friends .
ah ge tomorrow .
... xD ...
miss seii them !
tomorrow then 一家团聚 ~！
hahahahahaha !
long time din like that niao .
期待 ~
^^
but neh ...
2nite abit unhappiee ...
still a joke transform into apa i pun tak tau .
i just want people to tam me .
no other meanings lol .
>.<
whatever ~
maybe i'm wrong ba ?
over jorr .
suan lur .
then ...
got some that i did not want to mention .
zong zhi ...
UNHAPPIE .
Y : just suddenly TERINGIN to open the computer and come here bla bla .
because i'm SIENZ !
not sleepy geh sienz .
just ...
feel mentally SIENZ .
LOLLLLLL !
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
ANTI CIGARETTES !
ANTI CIGARETTES !
I HATE CIGARETTES !
that's what i hate ~
stop acting foolish .
stop smoking from now on !
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
坐着等死~
>.<
i hate today !
almost quarrel with frenz ...
i'm unhappiee enough she still ......
=X
我真的...不敢担保哪一天会跟你吵大架...
谁叫我们的性格硬碰硬？
= (
today when reach skul ...
because of i just realise lee lian yao geh thing i did wrong jorr ...
tis saturday sure tiok niao !
!&(%()^##^&
then jiu pek chek niao arhx .
from morning keep eating my mee .
eat finish niao loitering at the lorong .
mouth keep niam niam niam ~
>.<
i duno wan how to describe my feelings .
jiu veli ...
!*&*$((&%$#^(
.......
then after that i told my frenz wan how ...
coz i don't want just sit there what also din do .
teahcer ad said twice niao .
tis week sure die niao na !
不想被他叫名字呐！
arghh~~
then sure is me myself nervous mia .
SHE still keep reminding me what teacher say .
lagi pek chek niao .
then from 4th floor go down go find frenz .
go up to the 4th floor again .
then when go in my class she still keeps reminding me .
i really pek chek jorr !
then i talk loud .
she shout at me !
i really angry niao !
the fire is coming from my heart !
i'm ON FIRE !
really FIRE !
but ...
i deh diao ~
coz i don't want to quarrel .
then i just emerge out from my class .
from 4th floor go to the ground floor again .
go toilet release my pent-up anger .
[ i think just my friends would know what will i do in the toilet . ]
@%*&%^^%&^T(*&&$%@#^
I'M ON FIRE !
I NEED WATER !
>.<
back class still mad .
i'm still mad .
stared at my frenz .
langsung don't want to sit at my place with all my frenz .
coz my seat is at the back .
then i just go in front there find a place and sit .
the person's seat that i m sitting also diam diam let me sit .
sitting quietly ......
take out the seat the thing in the desk and see .
drawing block ...
novel ......
[ when angry i will read , then will calm down . kinda weird ~ xD ]
then after that SHE also come in front find her frenz .
they talk till kinda exciting .
still veli loud .
you know , i'm on fire ...
still heard that ...
LOL !
then terus change place .
i go back to my seat .
then i want oioi .
mana tau ...
go where also hear her name !
coz i'm just mad with her .
my frenz is talking abt her .
OMG ~
@#$%^&*
i change place again .
i go and sit with a new malay girl that just come to our class today .
i think ...
she got abit shocked .
1st day come then saw a WEIRD GIRL suddenly go and sleep beside her .
it's much better sitting there .
although they are chatting ...
but not as HIGH as others .
then fell asleep until teacher came in just change back to my place .
do my homework .
[ when mad , it's good because i will go and complete all my works that haven't complete .
xD ]
until recess time .
they all go out .
i'm still alone in the class .
READING .
xD
after that really veli ... 纳闷 jorr ...
go down buy tidbits ...
find ah bii ~
whenever i unhappiiee ,
then i like to find ah bii jorr .
i get calm from her each time .
LOVE SEII HER JEKK .
muack muack ~
^^
i think then i'm okiee jorr .
then suddenly become veli HIGH playing with my frenz .
like siao po ~
expecially when science period .
i'm running all around the lab !
hahax !
but still haven't talk back to HER .
whatever .
everythings will be okiee tomorrow .
everytime also like that .
haih ~
i hate today !
almost quarrel with frenz ...
i'm unhappiee enough she still ......
=X
我真的...不敢担保哪一天会跟你吵大架...
谁叫我们的性格硬碰硬？
= (
today when reach skul ...
because of i just realise lee lian yao geh thing i did wrong jorr ...
tis saturday sure tiok niao !
!&(%()^##^&
then jiu pek chek niao arhx .
from morning keep eating my mee .
eat finish niao loitering at the lorong .
mouth keep niam niam niam ~
>.<
i duno wan how to describe my feelings .
jiu veli ...
!*&*$((&%$#^(
.......
then after that i told my frenz wan how ...
coz i don't want just sit there what also din do .
teahcer ad said twice niao .
tis week sure die niao na !
不想被他叫名字呐！
arghh~~
then sure is me myself nervous mia .
SHE still keep reminding me what teacher say .
lagi pek chek niao .
then from 4th floor go down go find frenz .
go up to the 4th floor again .
then when go in my class she still keeps reminding me .
i really pek chek jorr !
then i talk loud .
she shout at me !
i really angry niao !
the fire is coming from my heart !
i'm ON FIRE !
really FIRE !
but ...
i deh diao ~
coz i don't want to quarrel .
then i just emerge out from my class .
from 4th floor go to the ground floor again .
go toilet release my pent-up anger .
[ i think just my friends would know what will i do in the toilet . ]
@%*&%^^%&^T(*&&$%@#^
I'M ON FIRE !
I NEED WATER !
>.<
back class still mad .
i'm still mad .
stared at my frenz .
langsung don't want to sit at my place with all my frenz .
coz my seat is at the back .
then i just go in front there find a place and sit .
the person's seat that i m sitting also diam diam let me sit .
sitting quietly ......
take out the seat the thing in the desk and see .
drawing block ...
novel ......
[ when angry i will read , then will calm down . kinda weird ~ xD ]
then after that SHE also come in front find her frenz .
they talk till kinda exciting .
still veli loud .
you know , i'm on fire ...
still heard that ...
LOL !
then terus change place .
i go back to my seat .
then i want oioi .
mana tau ...
go where also hear her name !
coz i'm just mad with her .
my frenz is talking abt her .
OMG ~
@#$%^&*
i change place again .
i go and sit with a new malay girl that just come to our class today .
i think ...
she got abit shocked .
1st day come then saw a WEIRD GIRL suddenly go and sleep beside her .
it's much better sitting there .
although they are chatting ...
but not as HIGH as others .
then fell asleep until teacher came in just change back to my place .
do my homework .
[ when mad , it's good because i will go and complete all my works that haven't complete .
xD ]
until recess time .
they all go out .
i'm still alone in the class .
READING .
xD
after that really veli ... 纳闷 jorr ...
go down buy tidbits ...
find ah bii ~
whenever i unhappiiee ,
then i like to find ah bii jorr .
i get calm from her each time .
LOVE SEII HER JEKK .
muack muack ~
^^
i think then i'm okiee jorr .
then suddenly become veli HIGH playing with my frenz .
like siao po ~
expecially when science period .
i'm running all around the lab !
hahax !
but still haven't talk back to HER .
whatever .
everythings will be okiee tomorrow .
everytime also like that .
haih ~
Y : i hope NO arguements between us anymore .
i lurb you all . <3
Monday, July 20, 2009
don't know yyy ...
recently NiBu also veli veli tired ...
吃不好， 睡不饱 ...
suffer neh ~
when hungry ...
just eat little mia ...
when tired tired + sleepy ...
lay on bed bed then cant oioi ...
even can oioi jorr also like no oioi ...
my brain keeps running and running ...
no time for me to rest ...
suffering ! suffering ! SUFFERING !
>.<
see this morning jiu hao lur .
alarm haven't ring jiu wake up lur .
以我的性格 ，
闹钟不响 ，
我怎么可能起身！
but when wake up ......
4 message , 2 miss call .
gai niao ~
then sms back ...
but ...
seem like too late niao ...
haih ~
我不会安慰人啦 ...
结果就说了一堆有的没的 ...
=X
还是没用 ...
真的很无奈 ...
希望他没事了 ...
给我记住啊你 ...
表逞强了 ...
有事的话要说 ...
笨蛋~
then so ngam mummy oso come in and call me up to eat breakfast .
suan niao then .
go bath bath then go downstairs mam mam .
after that study jorr a while .
not long after then i feel dizzy jorr .
sobb ~~~
coz my sleep = no sleep .
my mind is extremely tired .
="(
then i faster go back my room oioi again .
when wake up ad 2.30 .
faster go down eat my lunch .
abor sure kena !
>.<
fiu ~~
fortunately mummy go out niao ~
eat with daddy .
then ben laii wan study geh .
coz my trial is coming soon .
but ...
lazy niao ~
jiu come on9 lur ...
mana tau ......
...
.....
..........
kena mummy niam .
" 整天会睡睡睡罢了...
宁可睡觉也表帮我做一点工...
你要我怎么办啊 颖......"
>.<
she don't know anything then say me .
i just diam diam .
then go fold the clothes lur .
haih ~
suan le ...
=)
recently NiBu also veli veli tired ...
吃不好， 睡不饱 ...
suffer neh ~
when hungry ...
just eat little mia ...
when tired tired + sleepy ...
lay on bed bed then cant oioi ...
even can oioi jorr also like no oioi ...
my brain keeps running and running ...
no time for me to rest ...
suffering ! suffering ! SUFFERING !
>.<
see this morning jiu hao lur .
alarm haven't ring jiu wake up lur .
以我的性格 ，
闹钟不响 ，
我怎么可能起身！
but when wake up ......
4 message , 2 miss call .
gai niao ~
then sms back ...
but ...
seem like too late niao ...
haih ~
我不会安慰人啦 ...
结果就说了一堆有的没的 ...
=X
还是没用 ...
真的很无奈 ...
希望他没事了 ...
给我记住啊你 ...
表逞强了 ...
有事的话要说 ...
笨蛋~
then so ngam mummy oso come in and call me up to eat breakfast .
suan niao then .
go bath bath then go downstairs mam mam .
after that study jorr a while .
not long after then i feel dizzy jorr .
sobb ~~~
coz my sleep = no sleep .
my mind is extremely tired .
="(
then i faster go back my room oioi again .
when wake up ad 2.30 .
faster go down eat my lunch .
abor sure kena !
>.<
fiu ~~
fortunately mummy go out niao ~
eat with daddy .
then ben laii wan study geh .
coz my trial is coming soon .
but ...
lazy niao ~
jiu come on9 lur ...
mana tau ......
...
.....
..........
kena mummy niam .
" 整天会睡睡睡罢了...
宁可睡觉也表帮我做一点工...
你要我怎么办啊 颖......"
>.<
she don't know anything then say me .
i just diam diam .
then go fold the clothes lur .
haih ~
suan le ...
=)
Y : 今天 ... 好静 ...
Friday, July 17, 2009
SHORT is chosen . xD
恐怖...
作了个怪梦.
好真实的感觉...
搞得我起身的时候,
情绪都被搞乱了.
还以为是真的.
不懂做么会做这样的梦...
从来没有.
就算有，
样貌也不可能这样清晰的.
妈呀......
>.<
算了。
后来就起身去补习了。
其实今天，
不懂为什么，
8点多自己就起身了...
睡回去9点多又再醒...
炸到~
现在真的爱睡到半死...
=.='''
不过本来今天想整ah pi 的...
可是老师有在,
我哪里敢？
lol .
哈哈！
补习完，
吃完午餐，
hohoho~
去剪掉我的头发！
现在真的我不是我了。
哈哈！
这样的发型还真的没在我头上出现过。
嘻嘻。
只要去他那里剪一次头发，
就换一次形象，
不错嘛...
呵呵~
^^
还没po照片上来...
懒惰 + 没心情拍 。
嘻。
就这样吧...
不想说了.
歪歪~
muack muack~
=]
Thursday, July 16, 2009
渐渐 习惯
"我已经渐渐习惯 盲目把生活填满...................."
习惯
一个人
习惯
盲目填满生活
习惯
孤单 寂寞
真的 习惯了吗？
本来以为
我可以适应
终日对着
学校 床 书 电视 电脑
独生女般的生活
但是
原来我好不习惯
自从姐跟哥去读书以后
就留下我一个人
一个人 吃晚餐
一个人 看电视
一个人 睡着
一个人 好不习惯
其实
不是不能习惯
只是 我不想习惯
我喜欢的
不是
回到家 看着房里的洋娃娃
莫名的睡了
没有呼吸的你们
没有感觉的你们
给我的陪伴
是否足够
我并不知足
好想念
饭桌上的吵闹声
看电视时的争论声
甚至 是睡觉声
都好
至少 不像现在
莫名有一种被留下来了的感觉
电话里
我却总是抱着期待的心情
期待着每一个个的回复
因为 它是唯一的真正陪伴
但是
希望落空的感觉
我形容不了
只好选择接受
习惯
一个人
习惯
盲目填满生活
习惯
孤单 寂寞
真的 习惯了吗？
本来以为
我可以适应
终日对着
学校 床 书 电视 电脑
独生女般的生活
但是
原来我好不习惯
自从姐跟哥去读书以后
就留下我一个人
一个人 吃晚餐
一个人 看电视
一个人 睡着
一个人 好不习惯
其实
不是不能习惯
只是 我不想习惯
我喜欢的
不是
回到家 看着房里的洋娃娃
莫名的睡了
没有呼吸的你们
没有感觉的你们
给我的陪伴
是否足够
我并不知足
好想念
饭桌上的吵闹声
看电视时的争论声
甚至 是睡觉声
都好
至少 不像现在
莫名有一种被留下来了的感觉
电话里
我却总是抱着期待的心情
期待着每一个个的回复
因为 它是唯一的真正陪伴
但是
希望落空的感觉
我形容不了
只好选择接受
just now ,
mon mon told me ,
" a happy mood is just come from a simple mind . "
perhaps , it's right .
if i didn't have more thoughts on that ,
i will be happier .
because ,
happiness come from a simple mind .
=]
I LOVE YOU , MON MON ~
muack muack !
^^
i hope you'll be happiee too yar .
Y : i'll try to simplise myself .
because i want to be happiee .
xD
Monday, July 13, 2009
surprise !
no rain . just windy .
=]
but when go school ,
there is a BIG SURPRISE for me !
...
.....
.........
lol .
i wanna take the photo one .
bor bring phone !
...
......
..........
3AMAL get perly by xxx .
i remember mine is ...
" wei ying - berlagak pandai . "
damn damn damn !
just reach school haven't put down my bag then let me saw thing on the blackboard !
!^#@&*(&
then still got alots .
half class geh ppl kena !
pek chek jorr then just BANG my bag on my desk .
siao eh ~
at last is our class geh malay do geh !
still got something that make another ppl cry ...
lol .
白痴恶作剧~
then after that ...
that gal apologise to me ...
then .......
forget about it jorr ~
i hate to hate someone .
=]
sleepy in class ~
the weather is so cool .
but bor sleep at last .
chit chatting mia .
xD
then then then ...
suddenly ...
we are told to exchange classes with 4A for 1 MONTH .
alamak ~
the highest floor ~
ours is the lowest .
cause got 1 student in 4A injured jorr .
hohoho ~
KEEP FIT for 1 month lur .
everyday 爬楼梯 ~
whateverr .
反正是帮人 ...
无所谓了 ...
^^
nothing jorr actually .
hehe .
recently like jorr some songs ...
1. I will be
2. I wanted you
3. A moment like this
4. A little too not over you
^^
enjoy it .
xixi .
duno wan write what lur .
happiee everyday yar .
suddenly got a bit ...
奇怪的感觉 ~
weird feel ~
hahax .
don't know yyy .
maybe ... got something is happening but not on me ?
whatever .
xD
命中注定的事情 发生的机率是百分之百
i believe it .
=]
=]
but when go school ,
there is a BIG SURPRISE for me !
...
.....
.........
lol .
i wanna take the photo one .
bor bring phone !
...
......
..........
3AMAL get perly by xxx .
i remember mine is ...
" wei ying - berlagak pandai . "
damn damn damn !
just reach school haven't put down my bag then let me saw thing on the blackboard !
!^#@&*(&
then still got alots .
half class geh ppl kena !
pek chek jorr then just BANG my bag on my desk .
siao eh ~
at last is our class geh malay do geh !
still got something that make another ppl cry ...
lol .
白痴恶作剧~
then after that ...
that gal apologise to me ...
then .......
forget about it jorr ~
i hate to hate someone .
=]
sleepy in class ~
the weather is so cool .
but bor sleep at last .
chit chatting mia .
xD
then then then ...
suddenly ...
we are told to exchange classes with 4A for 1 MONTH .
alamak ~
the highest floor ~
ours is the lowest .
cause got 1 student in 4A injured jorr .
hohoho ~
KEEP FIT for 1 month lur .
everyday 爬楼梯 ~
whateverr .
反正是帮人 ...
无所谓了 ...
^^
nothing jorr actually .
hehe .
recently like jorr some songs ...
1. I will be
2. I wanted you
3. A moment like this
4. A little too not over you
^^
enjoy it .
xixi .
duno wan write what lur .
happiee everyday yar .
suddenly got a bit ...
奇怪的感觉 ~
weird feel ~
hahax .
don't know yyy .
maybe ... got something is happening but not on me ?
whatever .
xD
命中注定的事情 发生的机率是百分之百
i believe it .
=]
Y : i hate to hate someone .
just as i don't want to be hate by someone .
i prefer to love and to be loved.
=)
Saturday, July 11, 2009
short hair ? long hair ?
I NEED COMMENTS !
should i cut my hair short ?
or just stay it long ?
i'm confusing .
because i like both of it .
hahax .
xD
if short ,
it will just like before .
if long ,
then i want to stay it long long long and long .
not shoulder-long already .
i wanna try .
^^
but ,
don't know .
don't know how to make decision .
help ~
Y : i'm confusing . I NEED YOU .
fulfilled friday !
10 JULY
morning !
when wake up ,
OMG !
10.45 !
my tuition 11 !
gotta late !!!
no !
is LATE JORR !
suii dao ~
still kena mummy scold !
i'm late niao eating roti lur mummy still bor enough !
wan me drink milo kok !
dat time 11am niao !
but 1st time i din blacken my face .
hohoho ~
wo bian le !
hahax !
whatever .
i still can laugh even though i'm late .
coz got 1 frenz still later than me !
wakakakakaka !
i'm not the last one !
^^
but still damn paiseii when go in .
everyone is looking at me .
LOL >.<
then go to my destination .
BADMINTON COURT !
wakakaka !
but hor ...
when reach ...
>>>
>>>
kia sii lang ~ totally noone geh !! 
[ this is when i gotta bac niao nurr just got HUMAN . lol . xD ]
[ wuwu~ ]
[ then i shiok what ? =.= just ... SAJA . 幸灾乐祸~ hahax ! ^^ ]
big N + bor N winner ! congratez lur ~ ^^
huu ~ kolian de small N + second N ... loser ... buu buu buu ~
morning !
when wake up ,
OMG !
10.45 !
my tuition 11 !
gotta late !!!
no !
is LATE JORR !
suii dao ~
still kena mummy scold !
i'm late niao eating roti lur mummy still bor enough !
wan me drink milo kok !
dat time 11am niao !
but 1st time i din blacken my face .
hohoho ~
wo bian le !
hahax !
whatever .
i still can laugh even though i'm late .
coz got 1 frenz still later than me !
wakakakakaka !
i'm not the last one !
^^
but still damn paiseii when go in .
everyone is looking at me .
LOL >.<
then go to my destination .
BADMINTON COURT !
wakakaka !
but hor ...
when reach ...
>>>
>>>
kia sii lang ~ totally noone geh !! left us !
but ...
>>>
>>>
[ this is when i gotta bac niao nurr just got HUMAN . lol . xD ]when playing WHILE WAITING FOR BIG N ...
unfortunately ,
got accident !
our bor N sendiri hit sendiri punya mata !
yeng bor ?
>>>
>>>
>>>
[ wuwu~ ]
[she ... duno shiok what ...=.= ]
[ then i shiok what ? =.= just ... SAJA . 幸灾乐祸~ hahax ! ^^ ]lalala .
continue .
but me yue play yue pek chek jorr .
I HATE PEOPLE TO BE LATE !
although i know she don't want geh .
but still geram de ma .
lol .
1st time i wait for a person for 1 HOUR !
not 1minutes , 1 HOUR !
我的天！
my face black like what !
but at last ...
also suan lur ...
then we seperate into 2 groups lur .
BATTLE !
hohoho ~
bor larx ...
we play no rules de .
wakakakakak ~
but still lose ...
sienz .....
big N + bor N winner ! congratez lur ~ ^^
huu ~ kolian de small N + second N ... loser ... buu buu buu ~ 4pm .
fetch them go home .
then i go home .
LOL
xD
mam mam .
bath bath .
do homework .
oioi ~
hahax .
nite nite go out mam mam with family at SAMILA there .
the chicken chop really damn damn damn delicious jekk !
^^
but forgot take the photo ~
suan niao ~
xixi .
when bac ,
i'm standing outside my house .
i'm hapiiee because there is alot of stars in the dark sky !
a lot ~~
i damn like it .
really . like it muchiee muchiee .
^^
that time ...
really hope that someone would be with me and watch it .
if 1 day really got a person appears ......
lalala ~
=)
then watch my movie last episode with mummy !
huu ~
watch till cry lur ~
but i like the HAPPIEE ENDING !
^^
practising piano then .
SECRET better jorr alots .
oh ~
shiok dao !
wakakakakakaka !
lalala ~
^^
but ...
whenever i play piano ,
if thought about IT ,
it totally influence me .
make me cant concentrate ,
cant play better .
just IT can be able to do it .
geng neh ?
i also want to know how IT can be so geng .
>.<
i cant get the answer !
sienz !
then jiu don't play lur ...
raining heavily suddenly ...
on9 nurr .
actually i'm going to write it yesterday .
but something happens ...
so just ...
delay niao ~
hehe ...
but then the SOMETHING until 3am !
hahahahahaha !
this morning fortunately got ppl call me up .
abor me cham niao !
got piano lesson .
^^
tqtq jekk mon mon ~
muack muack ~
<3
Y : eeee ...
i'm quite sleepy now lur ...
go oioi a while sin ~
abor later tuition sure duk gu niao ~
hahax .
waiwai lur !
muack muack !
lovee everyone of you !
^^
Friday, July 10, 2009
A ko aii call. ^^
it's quite late now lur .
just waiting for a call .
if he din call , he jiu seii gang !
hek hek hek ~
^^
p/s : not my boy boy na . LOL . just a 2nd important person to me . ^^
hhohoho~
he late jorr 4minutes !
his present will be late for 4days!
hek hek hek ~
and hor ...
30august , he say jor YES 80% ...
he try and break the promise and see ...
i sure let his face oh cheh !
wkakaakakakak !
lalala . xD
hao niao .
dun write lur .
i oso promise to go oioi niao .
nite nitezz .
muack muack ~
^^
Y : yeai yeai !
我骗到他要了两次！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！
just waiting for a call .
if he din call , he jiu seii gang !
hek hek hek ~
^^
p/s : not my boy boy na . LOL . just a 2nd important person to me . ^^
hhohoho~
he late jorr 4minutes !
his present will be late for 4days!
hek hek hek ~
and hor ...
30august , he say jor YES 80% ...
he try and break the promise and see ...
i sure let his face oh cheh !
wkakaakakakak !
lalala . xD
hao niao .
dun write lur .
i oso promise to go oioi niao .
nite nitezz .
muack muack ~
^^
Y : yeai yeai !
我骗到他要了两次！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
i'm fine .
still the same .
wake up 6.45 .
change uniform .
go school .
just ... my mood is different .
=)
it's not bad .
but also not good .
just , normal lur .
lol .
just ignore about it .
^^
reach school .
1st period then kena pengetua ngam ngam niao .
she told 3A and 3B go serambi wawasan wor ...
no need to say also know what is she going to tell us .
CEMERLANG CEMERLANG CEMERLANG !
hohoho !
but ,
she today so suii jek .
ju ran ask me about my lifestyle .
[ coz i get full As in mid-year exam . ]
there is our conservation below .
[ not all na . ]
P = pengetua
Y = me
P : everyday after go back home , what you do ?
Y : err ... err ... sleep . [ smiling . ]
P : then how long do you sleep ?
Y : err ... err ... [ laughing . ] sometimes almost 3hours .
P : [ she looks fainted . ] then minimum ? just say 1 hour la .
Y : [ okiee lurr. hear what you say . xD ] ooo . 1 hour . [ smiling . but whole class start laughing since the 1st answer that i give . ]
P : after you wake up , what you do ?
Y : err ............. eat ... then ... watch movie . [ WE are laughing . i think she veli AM DEH . xD ]
P : after watching movie ?
Y : err ... sleep again . [ whole class burst out laughing ! even me too . hahax ! lalala . ]
P : [ deh diao-ing . ] then what time you sleep ?
Y : err ... 12 something . xD [ i'm telling lie jorr actually . it's 1am .xD ]
P : [ am deh face . ] ...... fine . u sit down . err ... err ... actually everyone got her own style . but we should study hard and use our time wisely .
i'm soli leh .
make her paiseii .
who tell her ask me jek ?
i'm just telling the truth .
i'm innocent .
>.< actually i know what answer did she want from me -- STUDY .
but ... mummy teaches us must be honest .
really , paiseii with her jekk .
lol . =X
whatever .
others after that still praise me cute when answering .
oh my god ~
i still feel damn paiseii .
=.='''
she ngam us ngam jorr 2 periods .
sweat .
then kena my other friends' classes pula .
hohoho ~
whole form kena .
wakakakaka .
xD
then , chat in class la , play la ...
actually wan oioi geh .
but ...
too paiseii wif the principal jorr jek .
lol . =X
xD
after recess .
realise that the " 我们不结婚，好吗？" i haven't finished .
big N already want it .
so i sekali gus read jor 100++ pages .
still haven't finished .
quite interesting geh .
^^
read till 1.10 .
go home .
alin follow me back .
coz got tuition together later .
eat maggi .
still cook for daddy .
don't know can eat de mao .
hahax !
but daddy never hiam what i cook one .
love him .
xD
lalala . ^^
then alin and me jiu .............
bai chi 2nd N !
wu liao small N ! [ bor image niao me ! >.< ]
err ... act cute-ing . xD
paiseii-ing . ^^
last , 酷酷 + moo moo ~ [ the doll's . ]
( i wanna edit tis . xD )
fresh fresh orang juice ! ^^
[ hand-made . ]
wake up 6.45 .
change uniform .
go school .
just ... my mood is different .
=)
it's not bad .
but also not good .
just , normal lur .
lol .
just ignore about it .
^^
reach school .
1st period then kena pengetua ngam ngam niao .
she told 3A and 3B go serambi wawasan wor ...
no need to say also know what is she going to tell us .
CEMERLANG CEMERLANG CEMERLANG !
hohoho !
but ,
she today so suii jek .
ju ran ask me about my lifestyle .
[ coz i get full As in mid-year exam . ]
there is our conservation below .
[ not all na . ]
P = pengetua
Y = me
P : everyday after go back home , what you do ?
Y : err ... err ... sleep . [ smiling . ]
P : then how long do you sleep ?
Y : err ... err ... [ laughing . ] sometimes almost 3hours .
P : [ she looks fainted . ] then minimum ? just say 1 hour la .
Y : [ okiee lurr. hear what you say . xD ] ooo . 1 hour . [ smiling . but whole class start laughing since the 1st answer that i give . ]
P : after you wake up , what you do ?
Y : err ............. eat ... then ... watch movie . [ WE are laughing . i think she veli AM DEH . xD ]
P : after watching movie ?
Y : err ... sleep again . [ whole class burst out laughing ! even me too . hahax ! lalala . ]
P : [ deh diao-ing . ] then what time you sleep ?
Y : err ... 12 something . xD [ i'm telling lie jorr actually . it's 1am .xD ]
P : [ am deh face . ] ...... fine . u sit down . err ... err ... actually everyone got her own style . but we should study hard and use our time wisely .
i'm soli leh .
make her paiseii .
who tell her ask me jek ?
i'm just telling the truth .
i'm innocent .
>.< actually i know what answer did she want from me -- STUDY .
but ... mummy teaches us must be honest .
really , paiseii with her jekk .
lol . =X
whatever .
others after that still praise me cute when answering .
oh my god ~
i still feel damn paiseii .
=.='''
she ngam us ngam jorr 2 periods .
sweat .
then kena my other friends' classes pula .
hohoho ~
whole form kena .
wakakakaka .
xD
then , chat in class la , play la ...
actually wan oioi geh .
but ...
too paiseii wif the principal jorr jek .
lol . =X
xD
after recess .
realise that the " 我们不结婚，好吗？" i haven't finished .
big N already want it .
so i sekali gus read jor 100++ pages .
still haven't finished .
quite interesting geh .
^^
read till 1.10 .
go home .
alin follow me back .
coz got tuition together later .
eat maggi .
still cook for daddy .
don't know can eat de mao .
hahax !
but daddy never hiam what i cook one .
love him .
xD
lalala . ^^
then alin and me jiu .............
bai chi 2nd N !
wu liao small N ! [ bor image niao me ! >.< ] 
err ... act cute-ing . xD
paiseii-ing . ^^
last , 酷酷 + moo moo ~ [ the doll's . ] ( i wanna edit tis . xD )
lalala .
big N and bor N are not here .
blek ~~
^^
then ...
bath bath ...
i oioi , alin pia game .
then tuition .
xD
6.30 back .
accompany mummy go market .
back home .
help mummy prepare dinner .
i most lekk jiu shi did this !
>>>
>>>
>>>
>>>
>>>
>>>
fresh fresh orang juice ! ^^[ hand-made . ]
oii oii oii ~
serious morr ~
dun try to suspect .
it's sweet and yummy okiee ?
blek ~~
^^
see it also feel thirsty .
hahax !
lalala .
i did one neh !
me norr ...
me me me norr ...
me !!
xD
2day's dinner bao bao lur ~
shiok dao ~
hahax !
haven't wash the dishes then go play my piano .
SECRET .
it's nice song .
but ...
i still need improvements .
lol .
i will +u+u jekk !
^^
then go wash .
then on9 .
then write bloggie .
haven't bath bath !
hahax !
sure kena in 5 minutes time .
woo ~
hek hek hek ~
^^
Y: today , i'm not thinking anything .
not confusing anything .
just see it simple .
make it simple .
and try not to realise it .
then ,
i'm relax .
everything's fine by today ?
i don't know .
because i do not know what will be happening ,
tomorrow .
so ,
just enjoy this seconds , this minutes .
i'm damnly appreciate every seconds of my happiness ,
from today .
i've learnt alots in these few days .
i learnt to set away everything ,
that is kept in my mind or heart for such a long time .
i learnt to keep it away in one night's time .
i'd learnt ,
experienced .
=)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
痛
在每个开心过后
一定会有不开心的事情发生
痛证明了一切
这一切只是假象
它给了我希望
但 却让我心碎的失望
我后悔了
后悔去知道残酷的真相
心门内 被保护的那个伤
让她毫不留情的任意戳破
内心深处的它
再次受伤害了
淌血了
止不住了
我的心 亦痛得麻痹了
说不出话了
我沉默了
它是痛
让我无法呼吸的痛
让我无法再站起来的痛
好希望
伤口不再愈合
因为只有这样
就不会再受伤
就不会 再痛了
原谅我的自私
忽略了你的感受
我好想依赖
好想要一个拥抱
让我不再害怕
一个人的房间的阴暗
好想有人抚摸着我的头
要我别哭
在这一段时间里
我遇到的事情
多得不是你能想象得到的
我撑不住了
我没自信可以面对太多的这些
我真的好累
累得起不来了
今天
手机 我没开了
就别找我了
今天的夜里
一定好寂寞 好害怕吧？
因为 大家都不在
我需要时间来遗忘
痛的感觉
一定会有不开心的事情发生
痛证明了一切
这一切只是假象
它给了我希望
但 却让我心碎的失望
我后悔了
后悔去知道残酷的真相
心门内 被保护的那个伤
让她毫不留情的任意戳破
内心深处的它
再次受伤害了
淌血了
止不住了
我的心 亦痛得麻痹了
说不出话了
我沉默了
它是痛
让我无法呼吸的痛
让我无法再站起来的痛
好希望
伤口不再愈合
因为只有这样
就不会再受伤
就不会 再痛了
原谅我的自私
忽略了你的感受
我好想依赖
好想要一个拥抱
让我不再害怕
一个人的房间的阴暗
好想有人抚摸着我的头
要我别哭
在这一段时间里
我遇到的事情
多得不是你能想象得到的
我撑不住了
我没自信可以面对太多的这些
我真的好累
累得起不来了
今天
手机 我没开了
就别找我了
今天的夜里
一定好寂寞 好害怕吧？
因为 大家都不在
我需要时间来遗忘
痛的感觉
Y: 原来 痛 才是属于我的一部分
Monday, July 6, 2009
雨后 天晴了
yesterday ... today ...
i regain lots of happiness in these two days !
i'm trully happiee !
i'm happiee from my heart .
the feelings ... that i'd lost for several weeks or even ... months ? years ?
CRY is the best way for me to set away my unhappiness ?
i guess so .
if not , i will not be happiee anymore .
^^
i regain lots of happiness in these two days !
i'm trully happiee !
i'm happiee from my heart .
the feelings ... that i'd lost for several weeks or even ... months ? years ?
CRY is the best way for me to set away my unhappiness ?
i guess so .
if not , i will not be happiee anymore .
^^
05 JULY 2009
nite .
the problem is solved !!!
it's settled !
settle settle settle jorr !
i'm jumping for that !
i tot i have to worry for a long time niao .
fortunately ,
they 2 veli ting hua jekk .
hahax !
no larx .
just ... my wish really comes true !
damn happieeee !!!!!!!!!!!
if my wish will come true ................
bear bear ~
hahaha!
p/s : 谢绝 mr. bean's bear . LOL .
nite .
the problem is solved !!!
it's settled !
settle settle settle jorr !
i'm jumping for that !
i tot i have to worry for a long time niao .
fortunately ,
they 2 veli ting hua jekk .
hahax !
no larx .
just ... my wish really comes true !
damn happieeee !!!!!!!!!!!
if my wish will come true ................
bear bear ~
hahaha!
p/s : 谢绝 mr. bean's bear . LOL .
[ I KNOW I'LL GET WHAT I WISH IN 30AUGUST . ]
^^
[except bear bear wishes . =) ]
^^
[except bear bear wishes . =) ]
06 JULY 2009
in skul .
don't know yyy ,
although it is solved ,
but me abit oso dun wan to talk abt dat wor .
weird feel .
i even duno wan how to look into her eyes .
walau ~
dat feel ~
damn chim ~
and no explanation for why !
then jiu suan niao ~
忍忍忍 ~
after that i am normal back .
fiuu ~~~
but i'm still happiee that she is normal again .
hahax !
muack muack ! ^^
moral period .
go pusat sumber .
means like ... library lur .
we rush for our essay coz teacher say wan pass up by today !!
mana tau .....
nobody pass up pun ~
zzz .
but then when finish essay still got time .
then we go and find books and see lur .
i found the pschology book !
oh yeai !
find jorr tis kind of book veli long jekk .
just it is just about social .
but also never mind na .
i lend jorr .
xixi . ^^
[ it's thick enough . i swear i won't finish it in 1 week time ! LOL . =.= ]
ah yee jiu found a 爱情小说 ...
"我们不结婚，好吗？"
iya ~
actually see dao the feng mian geh time i'm not even interested .
because it is an extremely old book .
LOL.
but after that ,
it became a book that we want to RAMPAS !
hahax !
alin read at first geh .
but then i bor su jo niao .
so jiu go and read with her .
got some parts really funny !
hahax !
then i start to get interested or even dump into it !
shi jie say wat to me i oso din hear dao .
wakakakakaa !
when wan back ,
sii guii alin !
rampas the book back !
jin ga ~
2moro it will be mine !
hohoho ~
lalala ~
^^
2.30 . back .
NO EXTRA CLASS !
woo !!!
hahax !
actually me everyday oso dun have jorr .
coz my result is GOOD .
wakkaakaka !
paiseii jekk .
just joking .
i'm not satisfied enough actually .
bath bath . mam mam . watch movie !
无敌珊宝妹！
唯青 so leng zaii jekk !
yeng yeng geh ~
yee .............
hahax !
珊宝oso veli cute cute na actually .
although she sha sha de ~
still alwaz do sha sha thing .
^^
天晴 oso veli ko aii yar .
although her face got 疤痕 jorr ,
but she is still a ko aii small pretty girl in my heart .
xixi .
last , 张栋梁 ，
DAMN ~
i like the 对白！
although it won't happen in reality na .
but ,
女生就是爱幻想嘛！
xixi .
" 1. 当我的女朋友
2. 我当你的男朋友
................................ "
lam seii le na ~
hahax !
not only this na .
iya ~
just i most rmb tis .
^^
still hug zhe 珊宝 oioi ...
hao xing fu o ~
xixi .
xD
nite .
oioi . mam mam . bath bath .
finally ... on9 .
saw a bloggie that make me really got abit ...
感动 ~
abit bit nia o . ^^
[tears drop . ]
I never thought that there is someone that will care of what i mention or feel at the passed minutes .
but you do let me feel it .
you make me believe .
i'll try .
i'll try to be the one who believe ,
but not the one who has no trust or believe in poeple .
thanks .
really thanks .
but you do let me feel it .
you make me believe .
i'll try .
i'll try to be the one who believe ,
but not the one who has no trust or believe in poeple .
thanks .
really thanks .
不管那是不是你的真心
或只是哄回我的一句话
但
选择 相信
我会过得开心点
因为
只有相信 才有幸福啊
^^
Y: 选择了相信 我的幸福 就在这里
只是在一些事物上
我还是需要安全感
去相信 我身边的每一个人
Saturday, July 4, 2009
free from din ~
今天
好平静
终于可以
很安心的睡着
很轻松的梦着
很自由的走着
不紧绷着脸
发自内心的 开心 了
放开了
不痛了
一个月的郁闷
在一夜之间
透过泪水洗清
泪干了
心也静了
决定再向前了
虽然 我失去了
以前的勇气
以前的坚强
但从今以后
我会试着再去相信
相信你
相信自己 我做得到
不要再害怕
不要再担心
更不要再想 是否作了对的选择
我只要自己活在笑容里
以前的那个自己
i'll try hard ,
to be stronger .
to be braver .
to have a smile anytime on my face .
but not tears .
i want happiness .
i want to be confidence .
Y : I'LL TRY TO BE WHAT I WANT TO BE .
NO MORE TRUST . NO MORE BELIEVE .
[ A MESSAGE NOT ONLY FOR YOU ]
"I don't know whether you'll care it or not .
or even doesn't matter for you .
but i do care it much and much .
It has stucked me to proceed for such a long time .
1 week ? 2 weeks ?
if it's so short enough .
It has remained in my heart, deeply .
It's painful .
this is the first time, that i am honest enough to relate it .
you're the person that i will always believe before.
but now ,
i am not sure anymore .
perhaps there is no fault of you .
perhaps , it is .
I have no more trust , no more believe in anyone right now .
and i also don't know who was the fellow that did so well and can let me miserable .
everything returns to ZERO .
I'm frustrated .
I am fed up of all the trust and tricks .
Perhaps it will just long for a night , or a day ,
perhaps ,
it takes a long time ,
and stuck me alone in the dark night .
when i am writing this message ,
i am extremely crying ,
crying at a silent corner of myself .
No one , no more . "
Y : a message that fall me down , through a silent night .
"I don't know whether you'll care it or not .
or even doesn't matter for you .
but i do care it much and much .
It has stucked me to proceed for such a long time .
1 week ? 2 weeks ?
if it's so short enough .
It has remained in my heart, deeply .
It's painful .
this is the first time, that i am honest enough to relate it .
you're the person that i will always believe before.
but now ,
i am not sure anymore .
perhaps there is no fault of you .
perhaps , it is .
I have no more trust , no more believe in anyone right now .
and i also don't know who was the fellow that did so well and can let me miserable .
everything returns to ZERO .
I'm frustrated .
I am fed up of all the trust and tricks .
Perhaps it will just long for a night , or a day ,
perhaps ,
it takes a long time ,
and stuck me alone in the dark night .
when i am writing this message ,
i am extremely crying ,
crying at a silent corner of myself .
No one , no more . "
Y : a message that fall me down , through a silent night .
Friday, July 3, 2009
++ loviee pixxie ++
blu blu blu ~
bla bla bla ~
mam mam + chat chat ~
bli bli bli ~
...........
just stop here !
^^
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