恋人未满 S.H.E. :D

为什么只和你能聊一整夜
为什么才道别就又想再见面
在朋友里面就数你最特别
总让我觉得很亲很贴
为什么你在意谁陪我逛街
为什么你担心谁对我放电
你说你对我比别人多一些
却又不说是多哪一些

友达以上恋人未满
甜蜜心烦愉悦混乱
我们以后会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一点点就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点我就跟你走
你还等什么时间已经不多
再下去只好只做朋友
再向前一点点我就会点头
再冲动一点点我就不闪躲
不过三个字别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口你就能拥有我

为什么你寂寞只想要我陪
为什么我难过只肯让你安慰
我们心里面明明都有感觉
为什么不敢面对
为什么你寂寞只想要我陪
为什么我难过只肯让你安慰
我们心里面明明都有感觉
为什么不敢面对

友达以上恋人未满
甜蜜心烦愉悦混乱
我们以后会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一点点就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点我就跟你走
你还等什么时间已经不多
再下去只好只做朋友
再向前一点点我就会点头
再冲动一点点我就不闪躲
不过三个字别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口你就能拥有我

我不相信
都动了感情却到不了爱情
那么贴心却进不了心底
你能不能快一点决定
对我说我爱你

再靠近一点点就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点我就跟你走
你还等什么时间已经不多
再下去只好只做朋友
再向前一点点我就会点头
再冲动一点点我就不闪躲
不过三个字别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口你就能拥有我

只要你说出口你就能拥有我

Y: such a wonderful and meaningful lyrics ;D

生命里不可或缺的 是 记忆

Ya , i should not suspect you overall .

And , i should not ask stupid questions .

Because , THIS IS JUST A SMALL MATTER .

hahahahaha .

I'm saying this truely from heart .

Everything is still remaining unchanged .

Whatever the human being gotta SAY gotta DO , i'm still myself .

So easily being influenced ?

It means that i'm too weak .

oh no no no ~~~

tough attitude should appear at this moment .

hah ! ^^

today what date ?

err err ... 26022010 ...

i'm a new born baby girl .

*muahahahah !*

想太多 ~~~

but i should not hope to be that .

Although it's better to have a new life , but i don't wanna lost any of my memories then .

No matter it's happiee ones or sad ones , 它们都是我们生命中不可或缺的养分。

WAO ~ suddenly so 感触 for what ?

hahahahah .

Y: 是好是坏，只在于一念之间。

一旦想通了，一秒钟便已足够。

Trust ?

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THIS IS THE MOMENT THAT I'M INSANE

THIS IS THE MOMENT ...

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I'M GETTING MY MIND BLANK .

I'm feeling like wanna getting mad , but i'm not .

i'm damnly confused .

what did i care of ?

that are just words or sentences that are not true .

Or maybe that time he's joking and the other ones make it serious ?

my heart still believe that he won't say that .

Y: convincing myself that it's just a small matter that should not be cared ,

i trust who i trust .

Slacking Off !

Who is coming to scold me or help me !

i'm switching on my computer and online once again !

tuesday is an exam day already and i'm still delaying here .

my book haven't finish studied , my homework haven't done .

what marks will i get in this february test ?!?!

T__T

Gosh , switch off !

Y: don't slack off please my dear ! Go back to your bookhills ! *shiu*

回应？

thinking something ?

hah , i guess so =)

recently too many things running up here >>> my brain .

i have no more times out for me to do more than these .

i'm fighting against time .

but the question is always crawling up my mind ,

everyday , every night .

when tuition , before sleeping , after i woke up ......

every minutes , every seconds .......

sometimes i feel good , sometimes , it's bad x(

Whatever now ?

i'm getting more blurred when i feel dizzy .

我该怎么回应？

我该怎么做才是最好的？

Y: my exam is around the corner , i'm still here x(

Sad moments ~

hmmm ...

what to say ?

recently , my days are sucks .

everything is not going well , everything is added with fuel , everything is going to be on fire .

every and evrything that actually full of happiness can be mixing with madness .

yyy can those be like this ?

seriously , i'm really fed up with those in these days .

and these days , noone is truly happiee from the wee hours of the morning till the dead of the night .

what is going on so mad ?

what had happened for these days ?

yyyy can it be like this ?

new year is supposed to be full of happiness isn't it ?

i'm now getting emotional .

recalled everyone and everyone that is not happiee in these days ......

i'm nearly cried .

tears fulfilled my eyes , but i didn't let it fell down , i know i shouldn't .

i should be strong to face anything .

or else ... the peoples around me will getting into the same condition with me .

i'm trying to cheer myself up .

and i'm succeeded .

but now , i'm getting all my feelings out .

everything happened sounds relating to me .

i'm afraid of those .

i don't know what to say right now .

Y: stay that far behind , continue walking on my street .

Whatever ! :D

Sometimes , an expression or even just a word , it does Hurts .

Nice words =D

don't think of whether i'm being hurted or what again lol .

you know who i meant , Xd

hmmm , today ~

not strongly getting in a GOOD mood .

but RECENTLY , i'm abit regaining my strength as before .

sometimes i do love the character of me before , yyy ?

at least i can live and stay happierr and just act like a KID as if without any worries and left the sadness behind , hah !

but what the heck am i going on since form 4 ?

you answer me lo !

aku tak tau ~

maybe other people will getting more understand of me better than myself .

na ~ let you all choose ?

Objective Questions xD

A. changing because of environment around , friends , families etc. ?

B. changing because of tired being that self ?

C. changing because of being hurt ?

D. changing because of losing confidence ?

last night i was getting someone not to sleeeep and talked to me till .... 2am-3am .

hahahah !

and at last , i was "lo lo" until now then .

the morning tuition stil okayyy , but after a short nap at home and get to the another tuition class .........

I GOT THE WRONG FILE TO THE TUITION ==

piku lak ~ like that also can !

whole people is getting on nerves , pek chekING ~

i don't have the file = i won't pay attention in class ad .

once i don't have my own thing to see , that is all i will do in class , FA DAI .

hohoho ~

but not 100% get into a state of daze by then .

Sometimes i still crudely heard what teacher is teaching , hahaha .

IN ADDITION , my dark circles !! coming to find me again .

kakakak , WHATEVER , "xi guan jiu hao ~~" ^^

hrrrmm , today whole day didn't even talk about a word to ah G .

yyy ?

i hope that i am not thinking too muchiee ?

is G feeling that i had done something deliberately and make that into a bad condition ?

in fact , i didn't know that what's really going on .

and you never tell , you are just blaming me and ......

whatever .

i'm not afraid , but is that i don't know how to start our conversation .

at first i'm going to , but your expression makes me feel kinda worse .

i'm not going to talk with you by then , and i'm trying to smile and laugh with others that i could ACT to have forgotten about your presence .

HAH ! i'm succeed , PERHAPS .

i'm again cheating myself , ah ! sucks feeling , whatever once again =D

and , i hope that maybe i am too sensitive ? :)

bla bla , i've changed my name in Facebook , Ying Be'Loved .

actually i didn't change for so long time because that is what mon mon put since i got the account what .

that is her creation lol , what to do ?

heeeee :D

but don't know yyy , just now suddenly get a strong feelings to change it , WHATEVER .

hohohoh ~

today keep saying whatever , what happen to me ?

WHATEVER ! :D

yea ! didn't reach CNY then i got an ang pao ad !

hahahahah , THANKS MY TEACHER ~ ^^

eeeeeee , what to say somemore ?

just ... HAPPIEE NEW YEARRR & HAPPIEEE VALENTINES !

a biggg wishes to all my families and friends no matter you are single or in a relationship ?

xixixi , just celebrate together ba !

I love my families ! happieee chinese new yeaaaa ! ^^

I love my dudesss !! hapieee valentines ! ^^

I love all of you , HAPPIEE CNY & VALENTINES !

HAHAHA xD

...... Words that i left , Ying Be'Loved ......

忍耐的期限

我还需要好多好多的时间去学习如何忍耐。

对我来说，忍耐这两个字，似曾相识，却又感觉陌生。

它的背后，会是一片怎样的天空。

反之，每个每个冲动的后果，却又是如何。

或许，我不曾去深思熟虑过？还是，我不想顾虑太多？

即使同样的事情重蹈复撤，我还是不懂得如何取用正确的方式去解决，

只有一昧地往前冲，却又得不到自己想要的结果。

冲动已经是我生活中的自然现象。

但如今，我想选择更冷静，想要选择更不在乎？

要我不在乎，做不到。

但冷静，我尚且需要时间。

时间，真的可以把我带到平静的空间吗？

又反之，它只会把我带到更痛苦的深渊？

“忍一忍啦，表去管他将多~ ”

它是常在我耳边打转的字眼，同时却是我敏感的话。

心里总有些不忿，“为什么要忍耐的总要是我而不是别人？”

我总会这么想和告诉别人，但这个问题，似乎从来没有人回答得了我。

但，每个每个冷静下来的瞬间，我都会问问我自己，为什么会那么冲动？

就算在别人眼里只是一件小事，但一旦我在乎了，一切都变得不简单。

现在，我唯一想要的，就是平静。

只要风平浪静的度过，人不犯我，我不犯人。

HEHEHE .

Y: 忍耐的期限会直到哪一天，哪一夜？

谢谢你~~~ ^^

last nite , i was getting into quite miserable condition .

but , you had changed me in just a moment . ^^

thanks for everything everything that you try to get me happiee back everytime .

but i feared that i will really getting too depending on you then i can die lol .

hahaha .

the photos really damn ko aii jiek !

hahaha , and i was really surprised when i received it !

i never think about that and it do makes me smile and even laugh .

zhen de ~ ^^

谢谢你比我更在乎我的快乐。

谢谢你比我更懂我自己。

谢谢你~~~ ^^

也许是因为你给的依靠，

让我改变了~

曾经向你道歉，现在向你道谢！哈哈哈！^^

Y: 谢谢你的一切~ ^^

默不作声 只是不想破口伤害

some sort of uncomfortable feelings crawl up to my heart .

what is that ?

i have no bravery to admit , 我在吃醋 !

hohoho ~ me lo , Yau Wei Ying lo !

hahahahah , don't know yyy , some sort like .......

jiu uncomfortable lak yor ~~~

hard to explain what do i feel now ...

some sort of fear , some sort of dislike , some sort of indifference .

i don't feel like doing my homework , no mood to do it .

NOT EVEN .

this is because of another reason too !

TODAY , there is a bigggggg MONKEY appears in our minds and give us a freaking sucks feeling .

what does she say infuriates me and makes my friend cry too .

so , what she wants now ?

just the moment then , i felt like wanting to CALL HER UP and SCOLD .

but ... this time i think of the consequences , although my mouth said that i didn't .

i know my friend will be in a hard time if i have done so .

i don't want anyone to be unhappieee .

but , is that everything that i could do !?

我不服气 。

为什么忍耐的永远是我们，而她却可以胡作非为！

这是什么世界?

我们默不作声，不代表默认，而只是不想破口伤害。

今年，我答应过谁，我不会再惹事。

但是，我真的不知道哪一天我的忍耐到了极限。

我从来不按耐着自己去做我不想做的事， 而只跟着情绪去完成。

但这次，我是为了谁这样折腾我自己去忍耐？

是为了所有人好？或许吧。

我从来不懂得忍耐，不想忍耐。

但这次，为了谁，我忍耐了？

我居然没有破口伤害，是因为可以更冷静地去思考了吗？

ou ~ EQ 变高了！

哈哈哈，并没有。

我现在只是在欺骗我自己，欺骗自己不把它当作一回事。

成不成功，我真的不懂得。

但，我讨厌欺骗，尤其是自己。

谁可以帮得了我? .......

Y: A monkey in the sea , IT polluted our pretty sea .

MA LAO SI FAT , please , go back to your zoo and stop annoying .

just SHUT YOUR MOUTH UP .

we remain silent , doesn't mean that we are feared of you , we are just bear-ING .

don't infuriate my friends either one , don't even try to infuriate me , you have no right to do so , 你没资格 。

L.I.F.E. :((

what kind of world is this ?

full of stupid people and stupid stuff ?

full of madness and unfairment ?

and what we can do is just to BEAR ?!

in fact , i hate to compromise with those stuff that i don't like .

but i can't do what i want to according to my whims and fancies .

this is because we are always restricted by RULES .

what's that ? is that just a tool to control us from not doing bad things ?

but what if the tyrant stupid people abuse with the power ?

i'm mad , seriously .

i m fed up with such a busy and busy and BUSY life .

just a month after the opening of school , i'd never stopped , not even .

the 2nd month , i'm yet getting more free , but become much busier than that .

homework - school's + tuition's ...

revision - for february test ...

tuition - almost everyday ...

st. john stuff - duty , marching for sports day .....

camp stuff - think for games , do reports , write news , meetings ......

exam - february test just after chinese new year's holiday ...

piano practising for Grade 8 - exam held in june ...

i'm getting abit stressful for my life .

i prefer my time to be smoothly going on , but not tension .

even i have not much time to have my rest , although sometimes is fault of myself . ( HAHAHA ! )

Y: just a sudden feel that came up to mind , insane .

hahaha , perhaps this is the best way to get myself better and cool down .

life is life , i have to be sincere to it and take it easy .

but , i hate such a LIFE . ==

and , i'm not as obedient as you think ,

i'm definitely not ,

i'm sorry for getting you disappointed to me ,

but i have no way to regret , as i have done so x)

it struck fear in heart x(

hmmm , just a kind of feeling of LOSING .

something had gone , something was disappeared .

what are those ? i'm finding the actual answer ...

i'm too failed in acting nor disguising or even pretending .

i can't even pretend or act that not to see something that i had seen , or even keeping my feelings .

i say what i want to , i do what i feel to .

but i hope that i'm not too honest with those all ......

i'm getting myself into a large large well , my head could be seen bobbing up and down in it .

i cannot breath , i can't even shout for helps , my voice is hoarse .

the feelings make me die .

noone save me , as noone knows that i'm there .

my time is not sufficient at all , but i wasted my time still on those useless things .

yyy will i have such a feeling ? because i'm being feared to loss ?

i hate to lose something that i have been used to or cared of .

not just hate , i'm afraid ...

Y: it struck fear in my heart x(