sucks ;;

i'm trying to think about some solutions to solve all my questions that i am unable to get answers .

but , i guess i'm failed still .

the easiest becomes the hardest , just simply go and ask , since just she knew the answers .

but what if the answers are hurt ?

i'm not afraid of that in fact , but .. what am i waiting for ?

making myself hurt without answers , what for ?

freaking minds .

some people told me that maybe we have some misunderstanding .

but her reaction was a sudden .

it was shocking me when i realised it .

we never be like that before .

but then some our gang ones also realised that she was going something wrong , not only me .

this afternoon i was just damn frus , cause i've received some news from my friends .

i am not sure that what's the real meanings behind those words , but .. i guess i'm not thinking too much for this , it's true .

i was going to ask just now , but .. failed .

i still cannot put down my bad feelings and it's just getting worse .

i was trying to work and work just let myself being as busy as i could so that i don't have the free time to get into the thoughts of those sucks feelings .

still , after my work , i'm slowly regaining it .

SUCKS !

Y: i don't know what to say anymore , just not to talk , not to smile , not to laugh in the moment then .