keeping , ignoring :'' ))

i keep everything on my own , for fear that it will be discovered .

i am enough tired of that .

and i couldn't bear for the next moment .

i'm disappointed for all , why ?

i think nothing much of it , but that is all the end , that is what you want .

HAHAHA , what kind of FUN .

i will swallow it , digest it , and eventually , get sick of it .

my happiness turns out to be at the others' PLACE .

FUNNY , i thought .........

ya , that is what i thought , definitely , JUST THOUGHTS xD

refusing to see , refusing to feel , refusing to know

everything , anything .

remaining INDIFFERENT will be what i want now .

i'm trying to F&F .

this is the only thing i could do , but not showing my weaknesses .

how clever am i xD

Y : but cleverness doesn't help :''((